This is what I sent my friend about why I’m overwhelmed at the task of summarizing my case to a new lawyer:
Thank you Jeff. Time is running out for my case though and I am still feeling lost. How do I inspire someone to want to expose the corrupt court systems if they aren’t already motivated to do so? Marc knew he could make a difference. He saw an open window in a sea of doors locked tight. He knew his way to change things was first and foremost through the appellate court. Exposing crooked judges to their peers, other judges, the only people who could stop them. He wanted to make a difference and I’m not even sure why. He wasn’t doing it for the notoriety, we see that in the way he didn’t even stop to come up for air long enough to listen to praise. He didn’t do it for money. He was handling Jerry cox case pro bono and mine for very little. He literally just wanted to do it because it was right. But who in this day and age isn’t only out for themselves? To be honest I’m highly motivated to become a civil rights attorney myself, at the very least an appellate court lawyer to continue the fight Marc was fighting, and winning, God help me before the momentum has been squashed by the horrible travesty of his death. I won’t stop talking about him. Ever. But if I don’t get my boys back from their abusive father who is well on his way to killing someone and his mother who blames everyone else for his abusive ways, if I can’t put my family back together I honestly don’t know if I will have the strength nor the confidence in myself to put one foot in front of the other. Resilience? Maybe. But I AM human and all resilience has limitations.
Thank you Jeff. Time is running out for my case though and I am still feeling lost. How do I inspire someone to want to expose the corrupt court systems if they aren’t already motivated to do so? Marc knew he could make a difference. He saw an open window in a sea of doors locked tight. He knew his way to change things was first and foremost through the appellate court. Exposing crooked judges to their peers, other judges, the only people who could stop them. He wanted to make a difference and I’m not even sure why. He wasn’t doing it for the notoriety, we see that in the way he didn’t even stop to come up for air long enough to listen to praise. He didn’t do it for money. He was handling Jerry cox case pro bono and mine for very little. He literally just wanted to do it because it was right. But who in this day and age isn’t only out for themselves? To be honest I’m highly motivated to become a civil rights attorney myself, at the very least an appellate court lawyer to continue the fight Marc was fighting, and winning, God help me before the momentum has been squashed by the horrible travesty of his death. I won’t stop talking about him. Ever. But if I don’t get my boys back from their abusive father who is well on his way to killing someone and his mother who blames everyone else for his abusive ways, if I can’t put my family back together I honestly don’t know if I will have the strength nor the confidence in myself to put one foot in front of the other. Resilience? Maybe. But I AM human and all resilience has limitations.
